Coffee and Idleness

So I just face booked a thought on how my mind is flying but I’m really just running in circles.. nothing is getting accomplished…idleness…

Amos 6:5  You sing idle songs to the sound of the harp…

Proverbs 12:11  Hard work means prosperity; only fools idle away their time.

Matthew 12:36  And I tell you this, that you must give an account on judgment day of every idle word you speak.

After I wrote what I thought was just a silly thought… I got hit with that stomach in your throat feeling… I am being idle…

I have a purpose… God wants to use me for something other than just standing with my husband, raising our children and keeping a home… I have lost my vision… I have found it so easy to hide behind my “responsibilities” and to some how dodge the ministry aspect of my life… I’m hiding behind our children… their schedule… cleaning the house… and really anything I can subconsciously think of, to not have to stretch myself further in Christ.  I’m not saying that being a wife and mother isn’t a ministry… I’m saying that I am knowingly ignoring the fact that God wants to use me further.. and I am scared to let him in and expose who I really am on the inside…